Didn't mean to be away so long. Life gets in the way of everything else at times.
So where have I been for the past year and a half. The answer is working two jobs. After hubby and I had a run of bad luck with our vehicles, I felt the need to get a second job to catch up on bills. I have been working at a retail chain pharmacy. I started out a front of the store clerk, moved to working the photo department and ended up in the actual pharmacy as pharmacy technician. It actually started out as fun, but I have been feeling really stressed lately, it has been fun, and I am tired of being tired. I have informed them that I will be leaving soon, but I will wait to help move the store to the new building. I still feel the need to make some extra money but I will decide about what it will be later.
So what happened to the indoor garden that was transplanted outside. The answer is, it died. Right after I transplanted the plants, I started working 15-20 hours per week at a second jobs. I just didn't feel like caring for it and it died. I reduced that hours I was working at the store, planted a new garden and then the drought came, and it died. I decided not to plant a garden this year.
Also by accident, I ended up making lip butter (lip balm - you can say balm on a label according to the FDA, because then it implies healing and is a drug.) and body butters, for a local art gallery. I'm not making any money at it, but it does sell enough for me to pay for some of the ingredients and packaging.
I took about two months off, from my real job, as it really did make me crazy. After 12 and 1/2 years there, I was just so overwhelmed by everything, that I just couldn't handle anything for a time. I had medications changed and started in therapy, and I'm doing better. I still have a pretty low stress tolerance, which is part of the reason job number 2 needs to go. At the moment my primary goal, is to get into a different "real" job, as I am still having a hard time dealing with my immediate supervisor and the number two person in charge. I really cannot handle figuratively being hit over the head about what I need to do. I am doing my job and I am doing it correctly, just not necessarily the way they would do it.I wish I could set down guideline on how they talk to me and when they can intervene on how I am doing my job.
I have been trying to take better care of myself. I have been running more, to deal with my stress and anxiety. I have been having fun a variety of local 5K and one 10K so far. I am just having fun, these are fun runs and no stress is allowed. I am hoping to do a trail run and 1/2 marathon sometime before June. I think March is looking good for the 1/2.
Jester had a little boy in March so I have a new nephew in the ever growing group. Not a lot changes family wise.
Anyway obviously a lot has happened since last April. I doing OK and hoping to be doing better soon.
Life doesn't always go smoothly, but no matter how bad the day, I have a 100% record of getting through.
