Sunday, March 11, 2012

Indoor Garden (part 3)


It's been 7 weeks since I started my indoor garden.

 First off what I thought was spinach was lettuce.  It has grown really well. I had my first cut last week and used it on Navajo Tacos. To cut loose leaf you cut about one inch up from the base and you should get a second grow. At least that is what I read. We'll wait and see.




Green Beans are growing really well. Here is a pictures of growing bean pods. As this picture is from last week, the pods are twice as big now. Looks like Mister and I will have good meal of green beans.  I have learned that beans and peas do better if you inoculate them with nitrogen fixing bacteria, which I picked up for my outdoor garden beans last week. (So excited for spring).

  My peas are still growing, the base leafs have started to dry and yellow. I have been reading the internet for an answer but I don't have a definite yet. I need to pick up a pH test and that should answer it. I am hoping the answer is add magnesium not you have root rot fungus.



The pepper and tomatoes are growing well, but no where close to start bearing fruit. The spinach has never really taken off. I need to read a book on companion plants to see if spinach and beans don't play well together or if there is something else wrong.

From what I've found in my gardening books and on the internet the condition are otherwise fine for growing spinach. Maybe I will have an answer in my next garden post.



Now is the time to plant broccoli and carrots outdoors and start my outdoor plants. Maybe I won't kill them all this summer.

Happy Growing.

On Wanting and Infertility

The 10 commandments warn against greed and being covetous.

Buddhism’s  2nd Noble truth is “suffering arises from attachments to desires.”

Sikhism
Adi Granth, Sri Raga Ashtpadi, M.1, p. 61
    Envy and desire and ambition drive a man out of the world.

Hinduism
Bhagavad Gita 3.36-41
Clinging, in bondage to desires, not seeing
in bondage any fault, thus bound and fettered,
never can they cross the flood so wide and mighty.

Blinded are beings by their sense desires
spread over them like a net; covered are they
by cloak of craving; by their heedless ways
caught as a fish in the mouth of a funnel-net.

Decrepitude and death they journey to,
just as a sucking calf goes to its mother.

Confucianism
Analects 9.17
    There is no crime greater than having too many desires;
There is no disaster greater than not being content;
There is no misfortune greater than being covetous.

I’m sure my dear reader that you are wondering why the religion lesson and what does it have to do with infertility. It doesn’t have to do with infertility it has to do with desire and happiness. All major world religions talk about the negative effects of desire (or wanting) on a person's psyche.

The closer I get to forty the greater I feel the ache of knowing I won’t have children.  For a time, I had been dealing with it generally well, keeping in mind the positive spin of being child-free. Then two things happened. Elster let me know at then end of May last year she was pregnant with her forth child. Then that July I had the most unexpected positive pregnancy test and subsequent miscarriage. How does one not rage against God, like a petulant child screaming “That’s not fair! Why I am I supposed to be this strong? How can I bear this?”    How do I get over the general feeling I am broken and that I am being punished for not being a good person.  Like every other loss, you just move forward. I remind myself of all the good things I have, and that I have everything I need and most things I want.  And when I need to really kick myself in the butt, I remember I’m not Job, and he was a far more faithful servant of God than I am.

I know I will find a balance point and I will be happy. I just need to live more simply, accept the things I have, and just let go.

As  Tao Te Ching- 37 says “When there is no desire, all things are at peace.” May you find your peace.

My Family

Sometimes I will write about my family. I have thought about what to call them when I am referencing them in a post etc. So this post is to sort of a legend to my family members I am most likely to reference.

Parents
Dadster - born October 1947
Momster - born November 1948

Brothers
ElBro - oldest brother and sibling - born June 1970
LilBro - youngest brother  - born September 1986

Sisters
Elster - older sister - born May 1973
Twinster - twin sister - born December 1974
Tripster - my adopted sister (sometimes called my triplet) - born November 1974
Amster - my younger sister - born June 1985
Jester- my youngest sister and youngest sibling - born January 1988

Husband
Mister


Hope this will help in the future.